Super Power, Activate!

I've been thinking a lot about forgiveness.
Praying. Reading. Wrote a poem.
Heavy thinking kind of stuff.

I thought letting go of the vengeful hoo haw junking
up my being was all I had to do.

Defiantly eating mass amounts of birthday cake laced
ice cream wasn't doing anyone any good, nor would
the vindictive plots creeping around in my brain.

I told myself I forgave and avoided the two for five
special in the grocer's dairy freezer.

But the uglies didn't go away.

Anger, disappointment and fear continued to linger. With
those beat the question, "Did I really forgive or am
I just a hypocrite?"

I had to look deeper and accept that emotions are feelings I
can't pretend not to have. More importantly, they come with
the challenge to be used responsibly.

Yes, I get angry. But hey, sometimes anger is a great motivator
for change.

Disappointed? Pshh. Often. Sure, I cry. I also learn.

And I need fear! It reminds me not to go too close to the edge.

There are fun emotions too, so I'll have lots to work with.

Forgiveness, however, is not an emotion. It's a super power.
And woah! We all have it. We just have to use it.

The ability to forgive let's you see through the uglies to the peace on
the other side. It's the incredible strength that can lift tons of vengeful hoo
haw out of prayer's way. It's the shield that doesn't wait for the battle to
be over to protect.

So, step off, Satan. This girl has been forgiven. I have God's grace,
and I'm not afraid to use it.

Forgive

Teach me to forgive,
As I have been forgiven,
Humbled in the armor,
Of peace no longer hidden.

Release me now of yesterday,
And hold me up today,
Ready for tomorrow,
Strengthened by Your grace.

Amen