Holding On

Something awful happened.
It doesn't matter what it was.

Again I find myself trying to forgive.
So here I am. Indulging in a little writing therapy. Please
bare with me as I hang on with a little help from the varied
unions of my 26 single friends.Alphabet, don't fail me now.

Forgiveness

Is bigger than we think we are,
A destination, much too far.

But the road says keep on trying,
Our forever can't be dying.

Trust me with you, ask me the same,
Release the secrets, allow the pain.

Let's grow together, not apart.
Loving with, these broken hearts.

Amen


Thank you for reading. xo

Purpose

Like water that sustains us,

It is ours to drink in and pour out.

After the mud, it cleanses.

With it, we grow.

Keep it pure and fresh,

Use it. Preserve it.

Purpose.

Contain it,

Let it flow.

  

You Are Here

Rhythm in the raindrops,
Makes the memories dance,
Moments when we listened,
Now, quiet eloquence.

Little bits of laughter,
And, yes, a tear or two,
Forever, you are with me,
My heart holds on to you.

You were here for always,
And always, you will be,
More than fond reflection,
You are a part of me.

Monsters Among Us

There are such things as monsters.

I know because I hear one when I close my eyes at night. 

I see a man, the man who attacked my daughter.

There, in the dark, I am haunted by the fact I have to love him.

The monster in me roars, "Vengeance! Hate! Rage! Pain." 

Sometimes I let the monster play with the image for awhile.

Even in my mind though, the monster never wins.

So I pray, "God, I see his face and all I feel is hurt and fear. Please help me to see what You see when You look at this man. Help me to know the right things to do for this family. Help me to love."

Morning comes. The monsters hide.

My grandchildren will be here soon. 

It used to make my heart ache to see their resemblance to this man. They smile at me with his smile, look at me with his eyes. I didn't want to be reminded he had anything to do with them. 

But those faces deserve so much more!

In them I see innocence and wonder, joy and hope. I see determination. I see trust. I also see my daughter. Mostly, I see two of the sweetest blessings I could ever know.  

I will keep my eyes open as I love the people God used to create them.

And my prayers are being answered. I am given peace in knowing, even when I can't see what He sees, He helps me to love.

There may always be monsters. I just have to be careful what I feed them.