Trying Again

We're expecting to adopt. There's a little boy out there somewhere.

I feel a special connection with him like I felt with my other children 

before they were born. He doesn't have a due date though and I 

can't protect him with checkups and prenatal vitamins. I'm up thinking

about him tonight and wanted him to know some things. Since I

can't tell him yet, I put it here.

Thanks for indulging me.

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I miss you.

I guess that seems a little weird since we haven't met yet.

But you're out there and I love you and I wish you were here.

I want to tell you that you have a family, a home. And I will do

my best to always make you feel like you belong because you do.

You will know about Jesus.

I will pray with you and for you. 

I will ask you how your day was because I really want to know. 

I will give you lots of books whether you want them or not. And  

I will keep hoping you want them

There will be cookies. 

You'll probably spill some milk. 

I will too.

You might get mad at me for making you go to school or clean your

room. That's okay. We'll get through it. 

Sometimes I may forget a paper you needed me to sign or what time 

baseball practice starts, but I will always try my best.

And everyday I will tell you "I love you," because everyday I will. 

I'm praying for you, buddy. I can hardly wait for you to come home.